Not Prepared

Almost every decision that I have made swiftly has been a bad one. Unfortunately, the hospital is not really giving us enough time to think about what we are about to do. Today is Monday. We found out today that the transplant process will begin on Thursday. 2 days (Tuesday and Wednesday). We will have two days to prepare. Let's hope that this time our swift thinking will be beneficial.

Two days to inform family and get them up to speed on the process and the minimal visitation. Two days to do all of the laundry, pack the bags, buy the supplies. Two days to get my job onto a laptop. Two days to cry, pray, cry again, pray again, and two days to enjoy our home before we say, "Goodbye," to it for 4-6 weeks minimum. Two days to answer all the texts, phone calls, clean the house, empty the fridge, do the taxes, pay the bills, finish all the jobs I had started...

And one of those days we will spend 10 hours either driving to/from the hospital or at appointments.

Jason and I have barely had a chance to discuss what we are about to do. We know we are both scared but hopeful. We both know we need boundaries at the hospital and are trying to plan this without being offensive. We know we are going to miss home, the foods we like, the alone time...

But this could be something great. This could change our future for the better. A year from now we could be home and well. Maybe Jason could be working again, or maybe we could go snowboarding again. Or perhaps we could go on our first real vacation in years. We have to be positive. Fear spreads quickly so please be positive for us. Please pray for us.

Thank you!